Kimi Raikkonen's PaiN

A dramatic result on F1 European Grand Prix at NUERBURGRING. In the final lap, Raikkonen still lead the race. But the tyres failure had cause Alonso grab the full 10 points. The sence is shocking although everyone knew Raikkonen race car had tyres problem in the earlier laps.
Someone said "He's race for nothing". But I think he had tried so hard to avoid the problem and never give up until the last minute. Eventually bad things occured and dissapointment is what you felt at that moment.
But you knew you had put an excellent effort on what you do. So no regret after all...

I don't want to be

I don't need to be anything other
Than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other
Than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anything other
Than the birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going, is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one who noticed?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be
Anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention please?
If you're not like this and that, you're gonna have to leave
I came from the mountain
The crust of creation
My whole situtaion-made from clay to stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be
Anything other that what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do
Is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be

sang by Gavin DeGraw

fake it...

I had no longer can be myself. Is too hard to fit in and I start loosing my concentration.
As time goes by, I'd ask myself over a million times...am i making the right decision?
At this moment, simple seem like a ridiculous thought to me because I had make things complicated. I am loosing my mind...
Is it I can't reach what I'm looking for? Is it I'm a coward?

season finale

This blog had been left out after my final exam. Neither not much to tell these days nor feeling lazy to write something... Most of the series I used to watched had come to the season finale (The O.C, CSI, Charmed and Desperate Housewives), so I probably will have more spare time after May. Is good to take a break, step back and figure out the next path we going to walk through.